My Struggle With Acid Reflux
I've been struggling with acid reflux for about 14 years. I remember my initial symptoms right before I was diagnosed... nausea. In fact, it was horrible nausea. My doctor put me on Nexium, and I never looked back. I never questioned being on a drug for so many years. I met people who had the same condition and so I thought I was normal. This is the way it is. You take meds for chronic heartburn.
It wasn't until about five years ago, when I became interested in holistic health, that I took a long hard look at what I was doing to my body. But even though I tried to change my diet numerous times, the acid reflux remained, and I could not get myself off these nasty meds. I felt hopeless. I went to a naturopath who recommended I take DGL licorice before meals. This actually helped to come extent, but the licorice was raising my blood pressure. Back to square one.
I started a raw diet. This seemed to subside my condition but eating this way was not sustainable with a full-time job and a busy lifestyle. I also tried a diet that cut out most allergens and all processed foods. My stomach felt great on that diet, but the prep was outrageous and became exhausting. People told me to take a shot of apple cider vinegar in the morning. Gag me! So what is the answer? What diet is the 'right' one? Is this ever going to resolve itself?
I was talking to a friend, and she suggested that maybe it's all mental. Maybe I am obsessing way too much about my diet and not cutting myself enough slack. Maybe trying to control the situation is making it worse. Could stress be the culprit? Could the things we focus on become our reality? If you know me, you know that I absolutely believe that!! I am truly starting to believe that my acid reflux is stress related.
This condition started at a time in my life when I was more stressed than ever. I was very unhappy in my early 20's. I was lost and depressed. I was very, very down. That is when I started having a lot of heartburn related issues. And since then, have I ever really let myself off the hook? Now that I think about it, the answer is no. Maybe if I just stop obsessing about every little thing I put in my mouth and stop controlling my diet so much, this will resolve itself. Maybe that is when the healing will begin.
I think it's time to love myself completely and accept where and who I am. I am starting a new ritual in my life. Serious self-love. I need to respect myself and my body more. I am worth it. You are worth it. You are worth love... so much love! So join me in my self-love challenge. I really believe we can all heal our ailments by bringing in more love and acceptance and letting go of judgments and control.
If you suffer from acid reflux, please let me know. I'd love to connect with you. Have a great week guys. Talk to you soon!!